What is this fire
I feel burning inside?
It sure isn't the fires of hell.
When I see you love
and serve and give,
the flames are the hardest to quell.
That radiance bright,
bursting forth from your being;
Has set this hard heart aflame.
As I touch your soft hand
and hear my name whispered
I wonder if I'm not in a dream.
The fire ignited
would consume me whole,
to give and to give and to give;
Until I have given
all that I can
to you, my dearest betrothed.
A Song for the Fire Bearer
From Shimron's Archive: Sappy Poetry
Underwater in a Frozen Lake
My fingers are bloodied,
My nails are torn,
My spirit is almost broken.
I've seen those who have came and perished before me,
Yet I find myself digging at the walls of ice.
I am a fool for trying, yet a fool I'd rather be.
Looking out from the Pit
I play a game of chess with myself,
Self defeating self.
I tread lightly,
Like a thief in a hall of bear traps.
My heart yearns for the day when I can speak,
With no fear of you leaving;
Of a day where I can stop dancing
Amongst the landmines.
Shimron: An Anthology
I've never actually realised that I've amassed quite a bit of poetry over the years I've been in KL. There are a few scattered on my blog, and a few in my Documents folder, and a few in my old notes. What better way to start the new year, than by revisiting these old, condensed memories, all gathered onto one page. I give you, in all its cheesy glory, Shimron: An Anthology
Rippling into shards of silver
The flower I cannot grasp
So close yet impossible
Would you fade like a mirage too?
While foxes return to their holes
A lone man sits in his room
Contemplating tomorrow
di donna,
cara ed amabile,
soave più.
My Bulwark in the storm,
my caring Friend;
A Fire to keep me warm,
Guide thru this transient land.
Companion to the outcast,
Champion of the weak;
In Him I will stand fast,
His will I seek.
Dungeon Crawling
Kids grow up and eventually leave the house. When we did, my parents decided to box our stuff up and chuck them... well... here and there. Prime areas are the now unused study room ('cos who studies anymore?), and the little space under the stairs I like to call the dungeon.
'The Dungeon' |
Deep in the recesses of the Dungeon, I found a scroll. Pretty cool, seeing how scrolls and dungeons usually go together. I think it must have been a gift from my uncle in Singapore. Rather tasteful Chinese calligraphy of a poem by renown Tang poet, Li Bai. Next step is to find a bit of wall worthy to hang it on.
Ah... my old treasure trove. The childhood equivalent of oil deposits - everybody wanted that unique piece, and if you didn't have it, you'd do anything to get it, including a fist fight. God knows how many fights I've gotten into with my brother and sister over these little tiny pieces of leg godt.
By the way, ever stepped on one in the dark before? Haha...
Of all the treasure I've dug out so far, I think these are the best by far. A possible 1957 edition of Alexander Dumas' Three Musketeers, and 100 Nursery Rhymes which has now gone out of print. A quick search on the Great Internet reveals that there's only one copy of the nursery rhyme book available for sale. Whoa... pity my copy's wrecked beyond redemption.
Here's a picture of my favourite rhyme of all time.
Once Upon a Time - Gabriel Imomotimi Gbaingbain Okara
they used to laugh with their hearts
and laugh with their eyes:
but now they only laugh with their teeth,
while their ice-block-cold eyes
search behind my shadow.
they used to shake hands with their hearts:
but that’s gone, son.
Now they shake hands without hearts:
while their left hands search
my empty pockets.
they say, and when I come
again and feel
at home, once, twice,
there will be no thrice –
for then I find doors shut on me.
I have learned to wear many faces
like dresses – homeface,
officeface, streetface, hostface,
cocktailface, with all their conforming smiles
like a fixed portrait smile.
And I have learned too
to laugh with only my teeth
and shake hands without my heart.
I have also learned to say, ‘Goodbye’,
when I mean ‘Good-riddance’;
to say ‘Glad to meet you’,
without being glad; and to say ‘It’s been
nice talking to you’, after being bored.
I want to be what I used to be
when I was like you. I want
to unlearn all these muting things.
Most of all, I want to relearn
how to laugh, for my laugh in the mirror
shows only my teeth like a snake’s bare fangs!
how to laugh; show me how
I used to laugh and smile
once upon a time when I was like you.
Creed, by Steve Turner
We believe in Marxfreudanddarwin.
We believe everything is OK
as long as you don't hurt anyone,
to the best of your definition of hurt,
and to the best of your knowledge.
We believe in sex before during
and after marriage.
We believe in the therapy of sin.
We believe that adultery is fun.
We believe that sodomy's OK
We believe that taboos are taboo.
We believe that everything's getting better
despite evidence to the contrary.
The evidence must be investigated.
You can prove anything with evidence.
We believe there's something in horoscopes,
UFO's and bent spoons;
Jesus was a good man just like Buddha
Mohammed and ourselves.
He was a good moral teacher although we think
his good morals were bad.
We believe that all religions are basically the same,
at least the one that we read was.
They all believe in love and goodness.
They only differ on matters of
creation sin heaven hell God and salvation.
We believe that after death comes The Nothing
because when you ask the dead what happens
they say Nothing.
If death is not the end, if the dead have lied,
then it's compulsory heaven for all
excepting perhaps Hitler, Stalin and Genghis Khan.
We believe in Masters and Johnson.
What's selected is average.
What's average is normal.
What's normal is good.
We believe in total disarmament.
We believe there are direct links between
warfare and bloodshed.
Americans should beat their guns into tractors
and the Russians would be sure to follow.
We believe that man is essentially good.
It's only his behaviour that lets him down.
This is the fault of society.
Society is the fault of conditions.
Conditions are the fault of society.
We believe that each man must find the truth
that is right for him.
Reality will adapt accordingly.
The universe will readjust. History will alter.
We believe that there is no absolute truth
excepting the truth that there is no absolute truth.
We believe in the rejection of creeds and the flowering of individual thought.
p/s: If chance be the father of all flesh, disaster is his rainbow in the sky. And when you hear state of emergencies, sniper kills 10, youths go looting, bomb blasts school, it's but the sound of Man worshiping his maker.
German philosopher, Friedrich Nietzsche wrote of a day where there will no longer be an objective truth, where chaos and bloodshed would reign supreme. That day has come.
(Words in Italics are mine)
Another Attempt at Haiku
A Psalm for Uncle Larry
Melayu Dikhianati?
Psalm 94
While having my quiet time, I found this Psalm echo my very feelings on recent ... ahem... matters:
Nocturnal Musings
It's diet time!
Valentine's Day
Hearts and roses, kisses galore;
I Give You Thanks
My Father in Heaven,
încredere în Domnul (Trust in the Lord)
Jesu, Joy of Man
My caring Friend;
A Fire to keep me warm,
Guide thru this transient land.
Companion to the outcast,
Champion of the weak;
In Him I stand fast,
His Will I seek.
Nocturnal Musings
These are poems which I have written over the course of the past few weeks. Its been a while since I've last written a proper poem, so sorry if these suck (>.<)
The poem below I dedicate to a close friend, WJ, since her fate is twined with this poem and the word coy (^.^)
The Wind 「風」
A gentle breeze embraces me
Whispering softly in my ear
Of pleasant afternoons
In the park
Of lovers trysting
in the dark
She flirts
with my hair only
To slip away leaving me
To once again
Long for
Her gentle
caresses and
Her warm scent
Coyly lingering
In the air
This one here is my fav...But have no idea what to call it (T.T)
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The birds have now flown to their nests
While foxes return to their holes
A lone man sits in his room
Contemplating tomorrow
Water Moon Mirror Flower 「水月鏡花」
The moon fades as I reach out
Rippling into shards of silver
The flower I cannot grasp
So close yet impossible
Would you fade like a mirage too?